Do You Stop To Count The Cost Before You Give To Someone?

The ability to share is the single most engaging commanding secret of life! Notice: Ability is the key word, here. You have the ability to do a lot of things, but do you use the ability is another topic of conversation, altogether. Sharing is not what you typically think it is. Sharing is not offering another person some of what you have.

Sharing is not giving to someone with an idea attached of how much you gave, when you gave, and certainly not with the notion of recompense.

You can’t possibly share anything IF you are aware of your actions. (meaning: You are thinking about what it is you are giving) Sharing occurs naturally and conveniently without forethought, afterthought, or in the midst thought. You never share objects, money, or places. These things you don’t possess, though you may believe otherwise. The only possible asset you have is to share of yourself. As Emerson so aptly said, “…A portion of thyself…”

We, as human beings are constantly receiving from the universe and because we are so richly endowed, we must in turn keep the flow going. Sharing is a cosmic circuit of prosperity which when slowed by your act of plugging a conduit results in backlog. In other words, you pay for what you don’t send out.

You are in actuality taking away from yourself because you NEVER and I do repeat NEVER share with another. You are always sending out to yourself. It is written, “…Prove me now herewith; I will pour out a blessing you will not be able to contain…” (Paraphrased) IF you are lacking in anything in your life at this time, it is solely because you are not sharing.

In essence, you are hoarding. Hoard can mean holding onto worn out ideas that are no longer relative. Hoarding can mean you openly refuse to contribute to a relationship and/or creative endeavor. It does not mean to throw yourself away by not valuing your time, energy and effort, however.
And, It absolutely does not mean to open yourself up like a 24 hour 7-11 store to all nomadic parties. And, incidentally, money is the LEAST you can share.

As I have already clearly stated you do not share anything, in actuality but yourself. Money is a form of you. But turns into stagnant energy unless kept in the process of moving. It is no more than dead inert paper unless doing its inherent job in exchange of services rendered.

Keep the funds flowing. OK. OK. Keep moving is the key! Ironically, the one thing most people begrudge is sharing. Truly to give of oneself unconditionally is a most exalted state, few people realize or appreciate. But, the ones who do are the richest people in the world! Most people do not like being inconvenienced. Sharing, to them, seems like an inconvenience. It requires of them to break a musty idea they’d like to retain: That they will be without IF they share. Nope. Wrong. Not so.

You will continue to be without unless you do share. I must be totally candid with you sharing is not sharing at all. It is giving. You can not ever think of yourself as sharing but giving. To give is to participate in a magical process of receiving. You can’t possibly know this statement to be true until you are at the place in your life where you can give without a thought of what you are giving, how much you are giving, to whom you are giving and that you are giving. You are a giver; you just don’t know it.

If I could share with (give) you this one dynamic unparalleled secret: You are never giving anything to another, no matter how it appears. You are always giving to yourself. So, it almost seems selfish to give, right? It’s much too easy to believe that If I give you a dollar, I have taken from my pocket and handed it to you. But, it’s magic, I’m telling you. Pure unadulterated magic. The dollar did not start with me nor will it end with me. Can’t you see this principle?

It must travel. It is commissioned to do a divine work. Just like you. You are the wizard transporter. It will return to you many times over but only on the condition that you send it out. Now, here’s the clincher (there’s always a clincher) you Can’t give merely to receive. (Even though the law will ultimately work in either case) In order to expand your awareness of the universal laws in operation behind the so-called world of reality, you must not have an aim proposed. You must give freely without a string attached.

Strings act like a boomerang and snatch from the one who holds the string. (Sorta like a runaway kite)

Next, funky tidbit regarding sharing (giving) You can’t recognize a need in yourself to give. That’s gluttonous vain glory. That’s the brass tacks of the matter. They hurt if you step on them. Ask yourself: Do you have a need to be remembered or valued for having shown your generosity or benevolence? Do you, after having given of your time, effort or money think to yourself what a wonderful person you are for having done that particular act of charity?

 

Do you stop to count the cost before you give to someone? If so, keep your meager pocket gift. No matter if it is a truly expensive gift or gesture, it is still pocket change. A poor woman’s paltry attempt is far more glorious and resounding than your conscious recounted act of pious giving.

When and only when you give without thought or recourse are you truly sharing. You never give to be compensated. Otherwise the gift is for gain. (Plain and simple) When the first motion of sharing is acted upon, the invisible reward is thereto attached. You can never be cheated out of a return. But, on the same token never attempt to give to get. (IF you’re really not up to the challenge leave the powerfully impenetrable secret, alone!) No one says you have to give.

The concept of sharing is really very esoteric. It is impossible for you to give without receiving. It is like planting a seed in the spring’s richly receptive soil. No one needs to worry or fret over whether or not the seed will burst through the ground. The flowering of the seed was guaranteed the moment it was buried in the earth. So too does the act of giving insure a flowering. You are commissioned to share. It is your innate nature as a divine human being.

 

 

To deprive yourself of the joys and pleasures thereto attached are in themselves delirious, painstakingly harmful and completely unproductive. Money is the least commodity you possess to give. How do you feel about giving the least? What is your idea of the most you can share? Make a committed effort of joyfulness to share something everyday. Get to that place whereby you are totally unaware of giving. Give. Give. Give.

 

You’ll be amazed at what happens. Its fun and it’s full of everlasting cosmic enriching passion.

Cinderella Point of Making Meaningful Contact In Your life!

When we are just about to give up or give in, help arrives. It called the Cinderella midnight hour! The lowest point usually portends and proceeds the dawning of a new opportunity. Better than we had ever hoped for or imagined. We need be exceedingly grateful IF we are observant and aware enough to recognize the disguised arrival. When we are that grateful, so utterly grateful, to those forces we cannot see with the naked eyes, our lives take on richer meaning.

No other mortal person has wrought this thing of apparent good fortune but is the accumulative result of psychic forces operating within us as self-generated antennas of attraction.

Therefore, we are never to be grateful to another who walks on two legs. As confusing and ambiguous as these words sound, they present us with the foundation upon which we can honor our walk in a most holy manner.
We are the summit of our unrevealed desires and the deliberate manifestation, thereof. Our inexplicable convictions are strong and should be relied upon, always. We are never to check with another for approval, validation and appreciation. We shall walk through the door of our soul’s intently expressed artistic delivery IF we sweep the floor of all anxiously conflicting motives coming either from ourselves or the other. We sometimes place more importance on the opinions of someone else, who knows nothing of our designated work, than we do in the consistent verifiably pulsating meaningful desires within ourselves.

When these auspicious times of celebratory significance arrive, we need be cautious in the ways and means of telling others about them. Too easily are the sacred impulses zapped from us from what would be called ‘psychic vampires’? Just because we receive verification about a certain idea, whether revealed in a dream or by seeming coincidence, (the more unlikely and bizarre it’s delivery, the most sanctified the message it holds) the matter must NOT be discussed openly with others until we’ve had time to process it.

Now, in the moment of nebulous formation (not knowing how it will come to pass or IF it even will materialize) is the sanctioned time to give the very least we can of ourselves. We are not to waste our energy talking and discussing these precious “foolish” things.

 

We can’t possibly realize the expenditure of wasted primal energy discussing things that have not fully formed, yet. It’s like “casting pearl before swine.”

In times past, we have been much too open in revealing plans that have not had the chance to materialize into form. Those in the KNOW would call this silence, the absolute necessary sublime ingredient in the preliminary stage of sanctified magical creation. Progress, (which is simply impossible to gauge by human eyes) is rendered impossible if we continue to talk incessantly and convincingly.

In other words, “Don’t be so available”. Agree to nothing. Disclose less. Be as vague and nondescript as humanly possible. Do as little as we possibly can to help the one who is oppressing, inquiring, and manipulating. Shut up! Smile. Change the subject. Characterize and communicate the conversation as something totally uninteresting. We must realize that a deep transformative sexual energy transmutes lead into gold in these situations. Use the opportunity accordingly. Never ever feel obligated or guilty, responsible or duty bound for withholding.

What is real sexual intimacy? The psychic ability to be in the presence of another without having to think about the relationship; the interaction forms a bio-electrical charge of inexplicable permeable saturation. The resonating vitalities of the two physical bodies, so energetically magnetically fuse together, that orgasmic pleasurable sensations move beyond definitive words.

Giving personal attention to the fantasy side on our inner most being releases the innocent childlike artistic expression. Laughing uproariously enables it to flow without conflicting boundaries and restrictions. In order to explore the depths of our unrealized passions, we must break through the tenacious confining restrictive modes of operative forces of the character which define, demonstrate  and deliver an acceptable, identifiable way to be. Forget about it. Live on the edge of ‘yet to be’ realized sublimely sexual creative artistic forces!

Are we pure? Yes and no. Yes, we are incorrigibly innocent and shall remain so forever as the unchangeable essence of spirit which comprises us. Are we impure? Yes. Our thoughts, drives, impressions, desires and impulses to hurt (get revenge), harm (get ahead), compete and compare work overtime to render us pathologically human. To eradicate the feelings of intrude, when propitiously rendering a desired challenge, leave the sacred subject unmentioned for a period of 30 days or for the period of two new moons to correlate. Do not speak of it, even in private.

Practical, applicable ‘seasons of change’ feel awkward at first, simply because we are not accustomed to living outside of the boundaries of our affixed limitations. We are so saturated by identifications, we often times, water down the importance of our newly arrived visions. In order to secure the celestial revelation, we must bear up under the weight of anxious expectation. Give not credence to the feelings of rapidly changing moods as the ‘seed of prosperity’ grows beneath our feet in the ground.

We are well aware, or should be, that incalculable lives of disparity have played and continue to play an influencing flavor of distraction in our personal walks. We are not singular in our individual aspirations. Neither are we to discount, dismiss and denigrate them based solely upon the limited range of information we have at present to properly access their value. “If IT matters to us; then it matters!’ (MODE of Cosmic Therapy© 2003)

Multiple connections of various lives affect our reality, along with the ability to adequately interpret the meaning associated. We are evolutionary creatures whose vanquished ideas are superimposed on us until the ‘visionary realization’ creates another level of dimension to discover, explore and expand. It comes down to a plain simple truth: we must learn to integrate a new way of interacting with ourselves. We must allow for the possibility of our being more than what we recognize ourselves to be to surface.

The vital life-altering occasion and youth-sustaining necessary time has been allotted for us to STOP the interactive negative chatting with ourselves and the ingrained thoughts of damaging threats and berating conditions of depressive doom. We will not be a slave to the habit of repetitive misery by continuing with the same old patterns of destructive recourse! We will do whatever is called for to make a little room for the seed to burst through the hardened soil of bitter discontent. The Tree of our Personal Integrity will explode into the heavens with innumerable branches of mystical spender showering the entire earth.

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Nobody Can Do You Like You Can Do You!

MODE of Cosmic Therapy: Realizing Who WE are! Here’s the deal.

Nobody can do you like you can do you. You are an unmistakably incredibly
distinctively unique human being. No one, who has ever lived before, now or after you have passed through this life, can or ever will be able to match you.

Without a doubt, no one feels, thinks, acts, studies, eats, sleeps, engages in sexual activity, holds a conversation, works, sings, laughs, worships or not and/or interacts in relationships in exactly the same manner as you. You maintain a solidified unbreakable persona (DNA structured make-up) that can not be matched or duplicated in unadulterated precision.

Try as one might, the process to imitate you or your specifically
calibrated actions are virtually impossible. Your thoughts alone, encased in
the rhythmic definitive nature of your specialized breathing belongs to your
body/mind alone.

Among the almost 7.3  billion people who inhabit the earth, no one can come close to rendering a facsimile of your true sexual artistic creative nature. You were born as an inherent artistic sensual vibrating energy whose mystery is undisclosed even to you. You are you because you are you and no
one else. In that respect, you are exceptional. What does that have to do with anything?

 

                                                               Everything!

You were born exactly as singularly you for reasons beyond your present scope of understanding or appreciation. You are endowed with enormous gifts, potential, talent and abilities not yet discovered or activated. For that reason alone, are you relegated and designed to perform magnificent feats of unparalleled commotion.

Everything that makes up your human body including the 46 chromosomes, 23 from mother/23 from father is only the pin pointed beginning of the nitrogenic reference point of what actually makes you who you are.

Not only does the intricate networking of the gigantic chemically electrical
hormonal osmotic fluid processing plant [known casually as your human body]
comprise your existence but every existing apparatus {organic and inorganic}
that has ever passed your way in the external world before you were born, while
you inhabit the earth and after you’re gone, has/ had/will have and unceasingly
shall continue to play a significant role in developing of your matchless
contribution on earth.

You are part of a fathomless whole! The mind boggling things you are capable of implementing cannot be written in words of any language. YOU are nothing short of miraculous!

If you can but stop for one moment to realize that when you were first
conceived, the spark of your life was invisible transported (transfigured) into visibility from a minuscule pin head dot into the fully formed person you are today. How can you ever doubt your adaptabilities in any situation no matter how difficult?

You were magically transformed from nothing
into something!

Wow! Just think about it. It all began with a meeting of two energies: yours mingled with and manufactured by the universal divine brought about through the process of human interaction. Can you get with that?

 

Can you envision the magnitude of your sacred ability encased in your exceptional presence on earth?

Each and every existing consecrated aspect visible and invisible in this world, among these galaxies and other dominions of galaxies, throughout all universes and beyond, throughout time and space as we understand its relevance brought you into being. You are a product of all that has ever been or ever will be. The ineffable celestial creation is in you and you are in it with no definable separation.

 

                                                When you breathe, you breathe you!

You are incomparably divine in nature, structure and unconditionally remarkable in every way. And, so is every other human being that has ever existed or will exist. It’s that simple and complete.
Just like you were held inside a sac of gaseous/mineralized water while in your mothers’ womb, (and depended upon her to support, nurture and sustain your life) so too are you held in a celestial nitrogenic gaseous/mineralized universal fluid of H2O for purposes to survive/thrive.

You are indeed magnificent; divinely so! You are alive for an incalculably specific
reason known only to the intrinsic celestial creator: whether you refer to
her/him/it or nothing at all. Still, you unquestionably exist as part of whatever you prefer to worship, love and serve.

No matter your differences and/or preferences, the fact that you are breathing
indicates you are intricately intertwined in the abundance of all that is. If
you deny that anything exists outside of yourself, then that too verifies the
existence of something (be it the denial, itself) maintaining you without
explanation, defense, excuse or confirmation.

You are you, regardless of how we differ or agree in definition. Your thoughts whether they are argumentative or compliant compose the ever evolving spiraling entirety of you in your delectable mysterious ambiguous glorious totality.

 

You are you!

Miraculously stupendously ubiquitously marvelously sexually sensually
artistically intelligently humorously spiritually mentally physically
nitrogenically celestially universally vibrationally defined! I love it: one ongoing
never stopping miraculous process of implementing fertilization and eliminating decay.

Now, you tell me: is that one hell of deal or what? If we were in a poker game, I’d say we all had Jacks or better to open with Aces over Kings in a full house. What cha’ gonna do with
something like that? YOU decide!

No Time For Bruised Egos!

Because we are propelled into this world to ‘root, hog, or die’ we form a ‘clinging to life’ vexation unconsciously. Separation Anxiety  has already been indelibly imprinted due to the fact we didn’t want to be separated form the warm conducive place we existed in prior to birth. We open our eyes to
a world of extremes.

Unmentionable chaos, noise, and irascible characters that are as afraid as we.

They (parent or parents) try; they do the best they can with what they have. Some do better than others, or so it seems. But to no real avail; we are still lost in a new world of vicarious undertaking.

One of which we must forge our own way. Once again, our fragile self is brought to the forefront; scared to pieces of the life-threatening possibility: ‘what will happen to us?”

So, we cling. But, all along, we subconsciously resent that we must be dependent on our primary caretakers, for we must grow beyond the self-serving dependency in order for the fragile self to expand and discover its inherent strength. How do we resolve the constant ambiguity?

By inventing games, so we can live with the guilt of lying and manipulating circumstances, compromising our integrity in order to stay satiated, while we perform acts of external entertainment to gain further favor.

Let us clarify, these instinctive drives are not unhealthy nor unholy but because the caretaker intrudes upon the child indiscriminately, in ignorance, no less, the child feels a certain allegiance to appease the ‘support giver’ at the expense of his/her own growing needs.

But, to find self-supporting self-identity without identification will take a life of conquering harboring paranoia. Complicated assignment to be sure, but part of the sojourn on earth is to be able to rectify soul’s intentional return, by inclusion of expansion and evolvement, to the divine source.

We walk through life projecting and transferring our repressed emotions on others because we can’t deal with the underlying hostility of not being able to separate clean. (Whether from mother, father, boyfriend, lover, husband, mate, partner or friend) It’s the same age old scenario: we want to separate and unite at the same time. We want to grow up but remain infantile in our demands and actions.

One, or the other, must suffer; usually our sense of self. In the birth process, in order to live, we must separate from the mother. But, in doing so, because the event is virtually so traumatic, we never get fully over it. We carry this underlying diffused ambiguity throughout life of wanting to live on our own terms, as a fully functioning individual, but at the same time, not wanting to break away from our mother in order to do so.

Every relationship is based upon these deeply ingrained emotional infantile experiences.

Whether we interpreted our childhood as pleasant or unpleasant does not negate the separation anxiety that was naturally inflicted during the divisional birth process. In other words, our sense of self is highly vulnerable because of the separation anxiety induced.

We fight to cling and fight to disconnect. We shall not even get into the area of how the mother adds to this complexity of fragileness with her own needs of dependency, clinginess and separation anxiety. And, on it goes and goes and goes.

In order for us to build, establish and maintain our own formidable productive sense of emancipated separateness and unrestrained identity we must be willing free the mother of any sense of wrong doing; whether that involved too much love, too little love or none at all.

By doing so, we can unleash, the innate celestial force in a practical, applicable and self-sustaining positive way. We will unconditionally recognize and fully appreciate our temporary housing facility on earth as we were sojourned for a brief season in our mother’s womb. We’re all going home. We’re all in this thing together.

No time for bruised egos, fragile sense of self and stationary harbingering grief. Let us all celebrate our arrival here and make the best trip back we can possibly dream up, imagine and execute. No lust of result involved, simply do it!

WE Are involved in the Process but NOT the Results!

Mode of Cosmic Therapy: No Gratitude for Human Beings Who Expect or Plan It

Enough About YOU; What Do YOU Think About Me?

It is almost impossible to stay centered when we swim and swirl about in a sea of turbulent emotions and erratic thoughts. But, not only do we get tossed about by “every wind and doctrine’ that lands itself on our ears during the day, but we subscribe to the notion that certain thoughts and ideas are of our own making.

Yes, we honestly believe we invent the thoughts and pride ourselves in mulling over the really good ones. Or, in the case of the bad thoughts, we lament ourse...lves and with others about how terrible things are according to the dictates of these thoughts.

Ludicrous. Absolute insanity.

I cannot think of a better definition of total insanity than to believe we create our own thoughts!
When we hear the words, “Follow the highest motivations within you”, how can we possibly do that when we don’t have an idea what that could be?

We are so filled, to overflowing, with the thoughts, ideas, notions, and sayings of others (whether from family, friends, lovers, and/or authorities} that to realize we have never originated a single thought of our own baffles us. Well, more than baffles us; we simply don’t believe it!

We have, {in spite of the onrush of all the roaming thoughts and because of the obsessive nature of ourselves, with the continual focus and importance we place on the thoughts and ideas surrounding ourselves}, made up a believable story about us which we continue to feed and nurture.

In other words, we are so damn stuck on ourselves, we don’t know the way to the bathroom without reading the sign that blinks in red letters, “Bathroom.”

We get so hung up on ourselves, going over and over and over the same old thoughts. We just add new flavors, varieties and colors to them depending on the day and hour.

It’s monotonous and boring; yet, we continue to talk and refer to nothing but ourselves in same way at all times. If the conversation veers away from us, you can be damned sure it will come back around, momentarily, just hold on!

Not only do we stick with the assault of bulleted thoughts about “Us” and rummage through the thoughts of yesterday, today and tomorrow associated, we start picking apart the thoughts into small segments of a more digestible form.

IF we don’t like what we’re thinking about, or how we are thinking about it, then, we start thinking how to change that thought or at the very least, move it around into another area of our minds until we can make it more palatable.

Have you ever once considered what precedes thought? I mean, what could possibly be the motivating impetus behind all of them? Where do they really come from and what purpose do they serve? Just something to think about. Ha. Ha.
 

Hurt Me One More Time

We KNOW nothing!  Nothing incorporates the intricately profuse lengths and breadths we go through to convince ourselves and others of just how ‘special’ we are, in addition to, in what manner we should be appreciated, loved, valued, recognized,  not to be taken granted and ignored. OH! How our emblazoned personalities so easily beset us.

Hurt Me One More Time, Please!  

These self-serving tactics of the ingrained personality fall on deaf ears when the canopy of inexplicable boredom and condescending depression envelop us.  These inadvertently cascaded defining impetuses are used as ‘red flagged’ prompts, in our soul, as another thwarted attempt, soliciting our undivided attention to arise from self-deprecating slumber!


According to Freud, (if one chooses to lend him any credence), the seat of the personality is found in the ‘id’, i.e. unconscious, which is the primary source of our underlying motivations. It is supposedly obscurely laced with innumerable facets of indeterminable problematic drives; desire being the principal instigator. Now, as far as I can determine, desire activates passion. With passion, ‘habit’, the irrefutable source of boredom, will not cohabitate.

 In other words, we are driven by forces we cannot possibly explain, excuse, defend or apologize for. When we contradict these unlikely culprits by refusing their incomprehensible impermanent entrance into our lives, we end up miserable and unfulfilled.

Hurt Me One More Time, Please!

Habit, we grasp onto, as an awkward unnatural endeavor, to ward off being exposed. Yes, exposed. We periodically, ever so briefly and slightly, see other unaccepted/discarded aspects of ourselves, in the wings, waiting impatiently and eagerly vying for bohemian artistic expression. How long we can hold them at bay is another topic of discussion, altogether.

The very root of our distinct personalities, along with the need for security and familiarity, are definitively tied to the pressure we assert on ourselves on trying to be identifiable as one who fits in with society: the so-called accepted conformist. What better way to achieve this unnatural feat other than to fall into habit?

Habit destroys personal integrity and in its place offers a cheap commodity of traditional approval.  No wonder we are bored out of our minds needing to seek material success, acclaimed status and recognized intelligence/beauty/fitness as a verifiable barometer of personal self-worth?


Our precious ruthless souls cry out in a desperate plea for demonstrable truth in action. Get real! Seek authenticity! Settle for nothing less than a ‘natural and convenient’ way of living. Our own sublime, sacred, sensual, sexual artistic expressions drill a deeply penetrative laser beam of innovative, revolutionary and cathartic energy.

IF we approach our lives in a truly passionate symbolic manner, using the god-given force (whatever that represents to you) to perpetrate a solidified measure of executive viability, we begin to truly live, unpretentiously. In other words, when we approach our exacting moments, including every single aspect, both organic and inorganic, as part of life’s puzzled configuration, then, habit flees and in its place, the character of an expiatory ritual assumes portent reign.

Hurt Me One More Time, Please!

In essence, what ultimately happens, we end up doing what was intended, no matter how it looks to us and others. We realize with full and unadulterated certainty, that our lives are spectacular parts of a unified ‘cosmic’ whole whereby we have not the ending chapter expressed beforehand. We are the walking/talking vehicles of the divine without procured purpose or designated design. 

Since we are all artists in search of our true art of manifestation, we must produce what we will, how we will and when we will for need of ridding our bio-psycho-chemical-mental-universal organism of extraneous gifts which would otherwise overwhelm and bore us.

Hurt Me One More Time, Please!

 

Our Grasping Hands Have a Deliberate Mind of Their Own!

Today, when I awoke, I remembered having a conversation with my Virgo mama, (she has since passed away) many years, ago. somehow, we got on the subject of hands. It was then, she remarked:

“When I was young woman, someone told me, after looking at the shape of my hands, that I possessed “grasping hands”.

That particular remark, though casually spoken by some stranger-in passing-stayed with her all the days of her life. I asked her what she thought it meant.

“I didn’t know at the time, but took it to be offensive. As the years passed, having time to ponder the words and live a little more of life, I fashioned a meaning relevant to me.” She replied.

“What was that, Mama?” I really wanted to know since my hands are shaped like hers.

“It meant, I would be reaching for things that were impossible for me to get though I would never really want them in the first place. But, until I reached for them, I wouldn’t be able to know that.”

Wow! That sounded so intriguing to me. I am sure I thought about it for days and then, let it pass.

But, this morning when I reached for the toothpaste to brush my teeth, I observed my hands, closely.
The thought of “grasping hands”-from that conversation-arose, in me. Could it be that, possibly, the source of our unrest, agitation, impatience, dissatisfaction and desire to be acknowledged, praised, respected, understood, appreciated and loved is solely due to fact we all possess “grasping hands.”

Paula, those words are much too ethereal for me. What on earth do you mean? I am suggesting, as human beings, we set about on the course of our lives, placing meaning, importance and relevance to things (or people) that cannot certainly cannot be obtained (people are never possessions; neither are things though we deem them so) and that we continually reach in spite of the reoccurring hardships/heartaches associated.

Not only that, but in the reaching for various things, money, position, jobs, recognition, careers, relationships, objects; there are no reasonable, satisfactory explanations for wanting them.

We can make up all kinds of stories about why we wanted them, needed and went after them, but when it’s all said and done, we don’t have a single clue why we vested so much energy, effort and time in the pursuit. Some people go so far as to "Grasp" at the memory of not getting something they thought they wanted but really didn't.

It's just something to think about the next time we reach out to forcibly try to bring 'more of something that's supposed to make us happier' into our lives. You know perfectly well what I am talking about: "try to make something happen that 'ain't gonna be' while making ourselves miserable in the process!"
 

Sexual Energy Is the Highest Form of Spiritual Energy Available to Mankind!

Why do we continually run after and try to capture, secure and imprison the one demon who ultimately destroys  Us? He's really so easy to snare for it is his motivating intent to devour our core being. Who is He. Self-importance.  Self-importance depletes, desecrates and decapitates our precious ruthless soul leaving us in a state of paranoid frenzy. We begin to believe our own self-projected lies of how significant we are, and how much we contribute to welfare of those around us.

We invite the honor of those ‘not so deserving people’ to courteously be in our presence. We convince ourselves we have something significant to say and that ‘they’ need to hear it. We feel we are essential to the family, career, relationship and/or emotional well-being of others. We silently pat ourselves on the backs while congratulating those who are worthy enough to be in our intellectual presence.

Woe be unto those who don’t appreciate, acknowledge and treat us with the revered respect we so earnestly deserve! How dare they diminish our importance, demean our contribution and deny our excellence. Have they been asleep? Do they not know who they are dealing with? Why: We are the ones who make the difference and we should be recognized for our endearing loving efforts in vested time, energy and money. But, IF these refined suppositions are true, why are we so unhappy, unsettled and unfulfilled?

Bottom line: we are sick to death of the sound of our own reverberating stagnated voice of importance. Somewhere deep down in the very base ‘gut instinct’ of our sacred being, we realize we don’t want or need all of that nauseous attention. We are satiated without the fanfare and glittery show! We are really quite simple unfettered human beings who simply want the opportunity to learn what it is like to be really human.

But how does one do that in this world of spoon fed media consumed idolatry of supposed importance with the consuming drive to ‘be somebody’? We must stop. Get off the train bound for self-destruction. Remember how to listen and hear what the ‘still small voice’ in our GUT is whispering. “It’s ok to be in the gutter.” It’s perfectly alright not to know the answers, receive the benefits and brandish the accolades. It’s beyond wonderful not to need to be accommodated and applauded.”

We can bypass the vexation of the sprit whose temperature has been boiled to exploding by the unnecessary trinkets and trivialities offered in exchange of authentic passion. Why cause such unrest to produce a turbulent heart and noxious mind? No need for such stupidity and frivolity. The ‘still small voice’ in the GUT is pure raw unadulterated divine instinct.

It is where sacred sensual sexual artistic passion originates. It is the key to unexcelled enthusiasm.

And, we all KNOW that sublime hallowed sexual energy is the highest form of spiritual energy available to mankind, right? Right there deep down in the gutter of unshielded unexpressed zest reigns the sanctified Solar Plexus; where true innocence dwells and where beguilement never even visits.

This is the ubiquitous filling station where “the first shall be last and the last shall be first” roam freely. We must be willing to receive ourselves nakedly undressed of all of the superficialities. Completely raw and real! Without question of ‘what will come from it’ or ‘if I do this will be better off’; better off than what? Than your actual indescribable passionate sacred sensual sexual attractive eagerness for true electrified living?

We must learn to trust and obey our own inner most instincts when every aspect (including people we say we love the most who mouths the same words of adoration) in the reasonable world say do otherwise. We must dethrone the fiend of self-importance. Cast him into the sea of forgetfulness to be torn asunder in his own self-projected blazoned glory.

We, on the other hand, choose to be free of even a smidgen smell of arrogance, pride, grievous envy, gluttony, conceit, superiority, egotism, vanity and self-deceit. We’ll run through the streets in full ‘natural and convenient’ authentic attire proclaiming the wicked old witch is dead. Long live the gusto filled passionate imp of unbridled soul’s sacred sensual sexual artistic blooming fragrant obsession!

No Infectious Fruit of Disappointment Can Sprout!

At times, we feel as though we are ripped ‘right through the ole gizzard’. So uncertain, unfocused and undecided, we think our uncooperative, unruly mind will burst open, allowing for the violent expulsion of the 2 pound unresponsive grey mass to spew all over the place. We experience the moment, as if we are torn into unmentionable countless fragments, split decisively down the middle, totally divided, not knowing which way to go, what to do.

 It appears as we are straddling the vast mindless ether, with one foot pointed toward the water; the other on the edge of the bridge. Not knowing whether to lean back up or fall forward in a predetermined jump. Do we go or do we stay? Do or not do; that is the unrelenting question of the hour. Moreover; do we really have a choice?

Yes, there are those definitive moments when we are incalculably stuck and mad as hell about it: before the mocking rage turns to destructive depression. We assume we are in a ‘no win’ situation where the odds are stacked against us. We can’t understand why? The door to our recovery has been sealed off with an impermeable glue we have no way of stripping. “How much longer can we go through this?” WE lamentably ask ourselves. Will we be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, IF in fact, there is one?

Can we possibly muster up enough strength to get over another disappointing episode of betrayal, heartbreak and deception? When we are faced with one of these devastating emotional catastrophes nothing short of a complete and utter de-assing is called for.

The truth remains and hollers at full pitch through the valley; “We are disappointed because we expected something from someone or from ourselves.”

Either way, we set ourselves up for the untimely descent in the moment we ‘looked forward ‘ to something occurring that we ascribed importance to that would in some way, improve our conditions. In other words, we thought the person, situation or relationship would give to us an edge of some sort. We placed energy, effort, inclination and anticipation in the result as being a prize-winning red-letter day of personal fulfillment.

Not true. The elaborated grandeur attached to the future or PAST synopsis created a false premise upon which emotional pestilence thrived. In other words, the moment we planted, what we perceived as the, ‘seed of benefit’ in the other person or situation, we created the poisonous clinging tree whose limbs would eventually ensnare and strangle us.

We can never look to the other {no matter who that other is} to save, redeem, exalt and/or help us, along. When we are involved with another person, for no other reason than because we want to be, we enjoy the company, we love the energy created, get pleasure from the sexual union, and we laugh a lot, no way can the infectious fruit of disappointment sprout.

MODE of Cosmic Therapy (c) Accepting the reality of NO Control!

The subversive patterns in our lives elude us! We look directly at them and miss the contingency of their blatant meaning and form. We seek everywhere for answers, interpretations, resolutions and recourse. Any place, anywhere with anyone other than where we currently reside.

We stumble, we fret, we worry, we complain. We imagine all sorts of things in the meantime, never once paying subservient attention to the obvious clues staring us ‘smack dab in the face.’ Why? Because we don’t want to see what’s there.

We don’t want to resolve the so-called problems that make up our cherished dilemmas. Why? Because we don’t really want anything to change; we want to complain and criticize while we continue doing what we always do.  We have grown so accustomed to our self-inflicted misery and delusional projected pain; we don’t’ want to turn it loose.

Try as we might, we cannot talk long enough or bitch loud enough to convince ourselves that we are being treated unfairly. We are so identified with the repeated stories of woe we offer; we can’t hear the content of distraction. No matter what elaborate lengths we will go to in the process in our defense, when the ‘mule comes back to the barn’, not one little crumb of our life will be disturbed in order to change things.

We berate the other with belittling sarcastic remarks; cause all sorts of chaos and confusion simply because we don’t know what we want to do with ourselves. We don’t have a single hint of who we are, much less what we are saying. We blame the one facing us for our own deluge of despondent despair. And, on and on and on it goes without relent.

It’s a desperate degrading pit to be swallowed up in and most especially for the unsuspecting partner. The belligerent attitude, the uncomely character, the unforgiving mouth merely sets the stage for the onslaught of guilt and regret to envelope our minds and sabotage our relationships.

The real culprit remains: we don’t know how to be still. Get Quiet. Stop yelling long enough to see: “there’s nothing really wrong.” Everything is perfect for the moment. But, we don’t want to hear those words! Our minds are filled with enough accusations and slander to fill the Grand Canyon and then some. We need to give it a rest, but we won’t.

“We gag at a gnat and swallow a camel,” as one enlightened writer so aptly stated. WE nag, bemoan, gossip and complain until our faces wrinkle, hair falls out and pain forms in our bones to cripple us; yet, we still, refuse to give up the unnecessary fight to be right!

Why are we so determined to have the last word? Be the one who has to set the matter straight? Little do we realize that our interference merely complicates the situation?  Why can’t we simply leave it alone; let it be. Because we are so vested in the idea of ‘certain’ manner we believe ourselves to be, we will not allow it questioned or examined.

We desire to remain in the lofty position of unchallenged authority with no possibility of being undermined or dethroned! How stupid. How utterly, characteristically vain! We need not keep up the charade. Our cherished self-honored party has long since been over; the guests have gone home.  We can kick back and relax.

No longer do we have to keep up the façade of having the answers and expecting others to abide by our rules. The rules have changed. Our mate is free to express himself/herself in whatever manner selected without fear of repercussion. We need let go of the iron clad grip we think we all holding on another. Let the reigns go! The horse will always return to the barn after his work or play is complete. Don’t you KNOW that?

NO Unity In Self-Realization Only Betrayal!

What does it mean to betray SELF? Self-betrayal started in the very first moment you saw and seized the opportunity for so-called unity. No such thing. You are a solitary creature already united. No need to try to join with anything or anyone. You must maintain your own presence without the grand display of forfeiture.

When you supposedly made the attempt to join another’s efforts you forfeited your own. If you don’t establish and make the natural effort to ‘flow without resistance’ you will end up erroneously believing that you can be, have been, will be cheated in some way or another but this is not true at all and never can be. 

Self-betrayal begins and ends your self-absorbed paranoid plight. Stop looking to another whether Divine or Human for your salvation and redemption. Realize once and for all that you are a Master Manipulator who is totally self-intoxicated! No need to apologize but worse yet is to deny.  You are perfectly fit for the task at hand.

 

 

You were born with every asset, talent, gift and ability you would ever need to unfold and evolve; no other person carries any extra ingredient to add to your pie. You are a walking enigma to behold and bestow.

 

You are the MOST important subject there is; you will always be. You have always known this but have invented clever undetectable entwining ways to either cover it up or mask it in some way or another. You wanted, desired, and craved the attention you received when you thought you were perceived as a ‘Nice, caring, loving, interested and concerned’ person.

 

You may have felt some sort of guilt for feeling so competent or vain. So in order to deny those belittling and contradictory feelings you exaggerated (acted out) in apparent loving and attentive ways. HA! Bull shit! You are not concerned with anything or anyone more than you are yourself.

If you do not see this fact: Let immeasurable PAIN over take your body and see how concerned you are for whom. And, loving? Who do you love when you are hungry, cold, tired or in need of relieving yourself in the bathroom. You are literally ‘scared to death’ of your indifference. You can’t possibly process much less tolerate how much you don’t care.

Until you realize and accept that you are a self-absorbed creature who does nothing without a desired result whether it be emotional, financial, mental, physical or spiritual you will in no wise be free. You simply want to be entertained, fed, housed, clothed and allowed to empty your bowels when necessary.

These actions boil down to one solitary motivating factor. You NEED to express in whatever way feels most natural and convenient for you. It’s not selfish. It’s the most selfless act you will ever enter into. MODE OF COSMIC THERAPY is not some specific program of organized methods. It's everything you do, say, feel, enjoy without feeling, responsible, guilty, ashamed, or bitter for things being the way they are. It’s simply YOU expressed at the highest and lowest levels (one and the same). Stop judging yourself so critically and bemoaning circumstances. They are perfect for you.

Are you ready yet? Let’s do it! Open the door for your incredible MODE of Cosmic Therapeutic Adventure. Find out what thrills you the most. When you uncover your particular way of doing things that feels right and good, you will be entertained and artistically inspired beyond belief. No other avenue will do it for you. You alone possess the creative, unopened  “Treasure Chest” of salvation’s unexpressed artistic talent! Guess what? The only salvation (therapy) going on is taking place within you and it’s cosmic in nature. It seems simple to me!

Soul's Assignment Demands Ruthless Attention to Enjoyment!

It’s high time to give yourself permission to thoroughly enjoy your life! No more pretending to be happy and satisfied while silently engaged in and on a volatile emotional roller coaster set on target to explode. The problem results from the fact that you have no idea where or when or on whom that explosion will occur.

 

But mark my words: “The day will arrive.”  Without your conscious participation, the dreaded occasion will arrive when you unload on “some unsuspecting soul” some of the pent up repressed anger you’ve accumulated. To add insult to injury, you end up feeling guilty for acting so inappropriately, so you apologize which diminishes your integrity.  And, then you try to explain your unwarranted actions. Ha! 

It’s a ferocious self-defeating cycle. It’s so pointless and futile to continue to live like this. What are you waiting for? What do you think you have to lose? Why are you trying so hard to maintain a fictitious façade?  Have you ever really stopped to sincerely ask yourself what it is that truly floats your boat? 

 Every action you take part in is gauged by fear and control. Fear that you will lose the security of familiarity and the control necessary to uphold the ridiculous story you’ve created in order to feel safe and maintained. Blow it to smithereens! 

Why spend such untold life-supporting energy and inherent youthful sensual life force to control situations and people who really bore and upset you. They end up feeling like they are in prison (furious about the situation) while you are tied up being their so called “guardian”.

Stop being their warden “give me a break”! (And, you too) Allow the other person the privilege to dispute you. Allow them to disagree and desire something entirely different from what you think they ought to want. Incidentally, the only reason you are trying to think for them is because you believe it benefits you in the long run; totally untrue.

The absolute worst experience you could ever go through is betrayal, followed by abandonment which is always attached. But, as surprising as it may seem no one can betray you except yourself: No one, no time, no place, no how. The same goes for disappointment.  Did you honestly believe another could or would disappoint you? They don't have the power.  

 

The abandonment you think you experience is solely linked to your refusal to accept your personal soul’s assignment.

 

You decided somewhere along the path to sublimate or delay your desires in exchange for the journey of another. You mis-appropriately decided that his/her life was more interesting and fulfilling than your own. So you jumped ship to board the train of another’s life. But make no bones about it; you were not guileless in your attempt.

 

Your motives were premeditated and clear. You undertook the mission believing ‘at some time’ you would benefit and gain something of worthwhile value that would increase you and your happiness. Or even more delusional, you somehow contrived in your own mind that you could and would add beauty, joy, love, happiness, support or benefit to the other. HA! Wrong! So totally wrong!

 

Now, is the time to stop apologizing for enjoying what you singularly enjoy! You are experiencing a form of life that expands you. No other person can do what you can and will do. Therefore, no one will ever understand why you enjoy it so.  The more you do it, the more 'natural and convenient' it will become. In fact, you may even begin to smile for no reason.

Divine Unconscious Stirrings Drive Us to Run Head Into Ourselves!

Passion! Unadulterated, unstoppable, uninhibited, unblemished, undeniable sublime incomparable zeal, causing one thigh to be thrust forward and followed by the other in an incomparable fashion of indisputable balance, is what we are enraptured with/by/on and for our life’s journey on Earth. An overwhelming molecular ‘bio-physical emotional’ electrical rush of incalculable measure and extraordinary involuntary brain activated muscular effort cause the legs to move forward in the process of walking.

And, so too are we motivated involuntarily to do the things we do, as a physical human being, without thought, concept or concern; such as breathing, eliminating from our bowels, eating, urinating, the prodigious use of all of our five senses, sleeping and of course, thinking. Infinite consciousness precedes all of these miraculous human activities; the sustainable result is that we are vivaciously alive!

 

So incredulously alive, filled to overflowing capacity with sacred sensual sexual artistic energy, we could shout from the roof tops each and every hour of the day without recourse, rectification, or recompense and still be exhilarated from the sheer intoxicating magnitude and divine sublime gracious beauty of it! So why all the glum, hum drum and bum dumb in our demeanors and attitudes? What’s wrong with us? We are the most sensuously fulfilled specimens on Earth. The bottom line is: self-importance. The siphoning irresolute demon drains the fused life from our blood pumping hearts.

Self-importance depletes, desecrates and decapitates our precious ruthless soul leaving us in a state of paranoid frenzy. We begin to believe our own self-projected lies of how significant we are, and how much we contribute to welfare of those around us. We invite the honor of those ‘not so deserving people’ to courteously be in our presence. We convince ourselves we have something significant to say and that ‘they’ need to hear it. We feel we are essential to the family, career, relationship and/or emotional well-being of others. We silently pat ourselves on the backs while congratulating those who are worthy enough to be in our intellectual presence.

Woe be unto those who don’t appreciate, acknowledge and treat us with the revered respect we so earnestly deserve! How dare they diminish our importance, demean our contribution and deny our excellence. Have they been asleep? Do they not know who they are dealing with? Why: We are the ones who make the difference and we should be recognized for our endearing loving efforts in vested time, energy and money. But, IF these refined suppositions are true, why are we so unhappy, unsettled and unfulfilled?

Bottom line: we are sick to death of the sound of our own reverberating stagnated voice of importance. Somewhere deep down in the very base ‘gut instinct’ of our sacred being, we realize we don’t want or need all of that nauseous attention. We are satiated without the fanfare and glittery show! We are really quite simple unfettered human beings who simply want the opportunity to learn what it is like to be really human.

Sphere of Magnetic Power In Personal Struggle/Restlessness!

You were born into a sphere of magnetic flow. Before you entered this dispensation of time, a specific universal honing device depicted the exact location you needed to be ‘plugged’ into for optimal results. This particular ‘honing device’ may be referred to as GOD, Divine Force, Holy Spirit, Universal Laws or whatever

The environment in which you were born was the exact stage needed for the experience you personally have expressed in this life. No other circumstances could have better provided for you the necessary substance from which you would have grown and continue to grow. In your life you will, no doubt, encounter many more sets of circumstances.

It is not important that you know beforehand what these specific incidents will be, but it is important for you to gain a grasp of understanding in the how and why you have the specific reactions to these occurrences that you do.

You possess a distinct basic blueprint in your individual personality. It is worth the time, effort, and energy required studying your make-up and character non-emotionally and completely objectively.

Unless you are willing to invest yourself in search of your deepest motivations, you will never be able to scratch the surface of the inherent meaning attached to your life. You will continue to be unsettled never certain if you are in the right place doing the right things.

You’ll constantly be battling against yourself, setting up all sorts of doubts and misgivings. This may or may not be important to you at the present time, but take in the probability of why one studies any subject. To gain a better understanding of it so that he/she may be in a place and position to master.

By learning how to identify which quality, strength or weakness that is available to, from the subject material being studied, in times of crises, you are more apt to ‘grow’ through the situation without plummeting into so many bouts of depression and hopeless despair.

Entitlement? Love is NOT An Obligation, Duty or Responsibility!

We all possess a saturated, supreme, sublime indifference that scares us to death! We don’t know what to do with it. We try to dress it up, call it something else, blame another or circumstances for the ‘natural and convenient’ unresponsiveness but it just doesn’t work.

We end up going round in circles trying to prove to ourselves and others-it’s simply not true-by going the extra mile, (doing something we truly are not interested in the least in doing and will end up resenting the fact we did it) filling the conversation with an abundant appearance of caring and concerned words, promising all sorts of things, we never intend to fulfill while we put on the best Oscar winning show acting like we are listening with such compassion.

My God! Paula, you make us sound like unloving, selfish beasts.

I’m not saying anything of the sort. What I am saying is that the most authentic part of us, which is so totally raw and real when activated and recognized, produces an emotion (proceeded and followed by adjacent supportive thoughts) which make us feel so uncomfortable that we react to it as IF it the opposite of love. We immediately set about to try to change these feelings by covering them up with more good deeds and/or at the very least, deny and suppress their natural course of movement. 

We certainly don’t want anyone to see just how much we don’t care and will go to great lengths to try to prove we do! It’s as if we are responsible and duty bound to prove that we do honestly (with all of heart, soul, mind and body) LOVE whatever it is that has provoked these feelings of contrasting drive. A word which might fit the bill in describing these seemingly unnatural, disconcerting emotions would be: obligation. 

 
Yes. We are conditioned to believe we are obligated to feel LOVE and receive LOVE. When we don’t have the slightest notion what a genuine demonstration of LOVE would be without our self-motivated, self-interested, self-absorbed intention attached to it. Everything we do and say revolves around us and our proposed substantiated needs and desires.

We expect something back from whatever action we take. This sense of entitlement invokes a state of expectation which produces a level of dependency and entrapment. And, as human beings, what does that do for us? Nothing but generate suppressed anger and fear because we feel helpless, controlled by something we don't understand or appreciate. Do you call that LOVE?

YOU Are The Center of What Universe?

Has it ever dawned upon you that the reason why you are so unsettled, agitated, angry, restless, bored, depressed, miserable, competitive, jealous, dissatisfied and envious is because you can never stop thinking about you? Yes, it is as true as it you are breathing!

The whole friggin’ world revolves around you! Try to stop thinking for one moment about you. You can’t do it. You shower yourself with a floodgate of non-stop chattering thoughts about YOU! You even call them your thoughts. Your mind is continually firing off themes about your family, your home, your lover, your car, your money, your looks, your being done wrong, your intelligence, your solving the problem, ad infinite.

But, let’s look at the facts. Are YOU breathing or are you being breathed through? Do you honestly believe and support these erroneous beliefs about your own breathing, identifying-going so far as-to say it is your breath! IF you are the one breathing, can you make yourself breathe one breath longer than when it’s time to exit?

Come on, now. With these continued exaggerated thoughts, ideas, assumptions and notions about yourself supported by memory, you make up stories{varied in color and content dependent upon the intent and effect of the moment} and recount those stories over and over to somehow make them appear real, substantial and valid. 

Could it possibly be that the more you try to add dimension (importance) to the individual self, the less amalgamated you become? Could it be that the more knowledge you gain about the proposed separate self, the more isolated, confused, bitter, fearful, doubtful, and indecisive you act?
 
Have you ever had one single proposition that you enforced to come to pass exactly as you called it into being? Or were you constantly surprised by the events and circumstances that seem to happen to you?

Like, death, divorce, depression and disgusting failure? Don’t think about it!